Why can't we love the right people ? What is so wrong with us that we rush into situations to which we are manifestly unsuited, which will hurt us and others ? Why are we given emotions which we cannot control and which move in exact contradiction to what we really want ? We are walking conflicts, internal battles on legs. Why is there ever this perverse cruelty in humankind, that makes us hurt most those we love best ? I'm sorry. I know that isn't want you want to hear, I know that it hurts you really bad now and I'm hurting too knowing that I'm the victimizer. But all I want is just for us to be happy because I know deep down in my heart that I can never give you true happiness, the happiness that you rightfully deserve. This is not only for me. This is for us. I hope one day when you're walking down the aisle hand in hand with the most beautiful girl you've ever met in your life, you will remember me as your superwoman and thank me for giving up on you.

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Happy Valentine's Day !

I have to admit that this year 2011 is the best Valentine Day i had compared to the last 3 years ! Dearest had planned a surprise for me but i was a surprise spoiler because i was so smart and i guessed what he'd had in his bag ! And although the petals and rose will wither away someday soon, and the chocolate will be all eaten up and in my tummy, the lovely memories you gave me today will always be treasured by me. Thanks for making me so happy today. I love you.

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Oblivion.



And if tonight, i were to lie under the same bright sky and just forget everything for once,

oh how perfect it'd be. I'm sorry for everything.